Week 7, Entry 9
Jul. 10th, 2022 11:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
goatgodschildCW: Recovery, sex stuff, anxiety, hallucinations
So, to summarize. I spent most of yesterday in pain, and when I wasn't in pain, I was so horny it was absurd. Like, "so horny I forgot to do things I wanted to do earlier".
What goes up must come down, I guess. Today I'm not horny, which is good, but I've been tripping absolute balls since about 1am and my brain is throwing stuff at me. How I'm going to be taken apart, how everyone hates me, how I don't deserve to be loved, how I'll always be a fuckup...
I was sad for a while, but then I started to get angry. Like, this is basic shit, and don't you even try it, you son of a motherfucking bitch. Get creative, don't give me this warmed-over line about how everyone hates me but won't say anything.
So, to summarize. I spent most of yesterday in pain, and when I wasn't in pain, I was so horny it was absurd. Like, "so horny I forgot to do things I wanted to do earlier".
What goes up must come down, I guess. Today I'm not horny, which is good, but I've been tripping absolute balls since about 1am and my brain is throwing stuff at me. How I'm going to be taken apart, how everyone hates me, how I don't deserve to be loved, how I'll always be a fuckup...
I was sad for a while, but then I started to get angry. Like, this is basic shit, and don't you even try it, you son of a motherfucking bitch. Get creative, don't give me this warmed-over line about how everyone hates me but won't say anything.
