Week 7, Entry 8

My feet are hurting off and on. They will hurt so much I can't walk (and I'll curse all existence), and then they feel perfectly fine, like I just need to pick myself up and go (and I feel like a fraud). I was cheerful earlier, but right now I hurt so much it's difficult to smile. I've got three days to go until I see that podiatrist, and it can't come soon enough.

I'm about halfway through The Shining project now, although maybe I shouldn't have done it while I was in so much pain, because when I was working on it today, it all seemed futile. Like, can I ever change myself, or work through the damage I've caused? I sure hope so.
If I can't, I will feel absolutely terrible.