Aug. 4th, 2022

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Running from the future
Running from the past
Running from the mirror
How long can you last?

Don’t look back, the thunder’s rolling
Don’t look back, you know what’s there
Don’t look back, the sight will break you
Look ahead, and forget to care.

Running from the darkness
Running from the day
Running from the voices
See no other way

Cross my name out of your pages
Turn your face away, forget the sight
Put back the stone you found me under
Don’t drag me back into the light.

Running from the living
Running from the dead
Running from the mem’ries
Just one jump ahead.

But you’re still alive
There’s a face in the mirror
Still alive, the dead don’t bleed
Still alive, life is a changer
And you are no stranger
Come take what you need.

There will be an answer
The sun will rise
Love is a survivor
Open your eyes.

Running from the future
Running from the past
Running from the mirror
How long can you last?
How long can you last?
How (how?) long can you last? (Can you last?)

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NOTE: This is mostly “Tomlinson” by Rudyard Kipling, but Fish cut several verses and couplets as well as changing some of the wording.

Now Tomlinson gave up the ghost at his house in Berkeley Square,
And a Spirit came to his bedside and dragged him by the hair—
Till he heard the roar of the Milky Way die down and drone and cease,
And they came to the Gate within the Wall where Peter holds the keys.

“Stand up, stand up now, Tomlinson, and answer loud and high
The good that ye did for the sake of men before ye came to die”

“O I have a friend on Earth,” he said, “that was my priest and guide,
”And he would answer well for me if he were at my side.”

—"Because ye strove in neighbour-love it shall be written fair,
But now ye wait at Heaven’s Gate and not in Berkeley Square:
Though we called your friend from his bed tonight, he could not speak for you,
For the race is run by one and one, never by two and two.”

The Wind that blows between the Worlds, it cut him like a knife,
So Tomlinson took up the tale and spoke of his good in life.
“O this I read in a book,” he said, “and that was told to me,
And this I thought that another man thought of a Prince in Muscovy.”

“Ye’ve read, ye’ve heard, ye’ve thought, good God! And the tale is yet to run:
By the worth of the body that once ye had, give answer—what ha’ ye done?”
O this I’ve felt, and this I’ve guessed, and this I heard men say,
And this they wrote that another man wrote of a Carl in Norroway.”

“Ye’ve read, ye’ve felt, ye’ve guessed, good God! Ye’ve hampered Heaven’s Gate;
We’ve better fare between the stars than you lay on our plate.
Get out, go down to the Lord of Wrong, your doom is yet to run,
And … the faith ye share with Berkeley Square go with you, Tomlinson!”

So the Spirit grabbed him by the hair, and sun by sun they fell
Till they came to the rings of Evil Stars that rim the mouth of Hell.
The first are red with pride and wrath, the second white with pain,
But the third are black with clinkered sin that cannot burn again.
The Wind that blows between the Worlds, it chilled him to the bone,
And he yearned to the glare of Hellmouth there as he would to his own hearth-stone.

The Devil he sat behind the bars, where the desperate legions drew,
And he caught the hurrying Tomlinson and wouldn’t let him through.
“D’you know the price of good pit-coal that I must pay?” said he,
That ye rank yoursel’ so fit for Hell and to ask no leave of me?
Sit down, sit down upon the slag, and answer loud and high
The harm that ye did to the Sons of Men before you came to die.”

“O I had a love on earth,” he said, “that kissed me to my fall;
And if ye would call my love to me I know she would answer all.”

—"All that ye did in love forbid it shall be written fair,
But now ye wait at Hell-Mouth Gate and not in Berkeley Square:
Though we whistled your love from her bed to-night, I vow she would not run,
For the sin that ye do by two and two ye must pay for one by one!”

“Well, once I laughed at the power of Love, twice at the grip of the Grave,
And three times patted my God on the head that men might call me brave.”

The Devil he blew on a brandered soul and laid it aside to cool:—
“Do ye think I’d waste my good pit-coal on the hide of a brain-sick fool?
I see no worth in the hobnail mirth or the jolthead jest ye did
That I should waken my gentlemen that are sleeping three to a grid.”

“Oh, this I heard,” said Tomlinson, “and this was noised abroad,
And this I took from a Belgian book on the word of a dead French lord.”

—"Ye’ve heard, ye’ve read, ye’ve got, good lack! and the tale begins afresh—
“Have ye sinned one sin for the pride o’ the eye or the sinful lust of the flesh?”

Then Tomlinson he gripped the bars and he yammered, “Let me in—
I remembered I borrowed my neighbour’s wife to sin the deadly sin.”

The Devil he grinned behind the bars, and he banked the fires high:“
Did ye read of that sin in a book?” he said; and Tomlinson said, “Ay!”

The Devil he blew upon his nails, and the little demons ran,
And he said: “Go husk this whimpering thief that comes in the guise of a man: "Go winnow him out from star and star, and sieve his proper worth:
There’s sore decline in Adam’s line if this is the spawn of Earth.”

When the demons came with the tattered Thing, as children after play,
They said: “The soul he got from God he’s bartered clean away.
We’ve threshed out a mint of print and book, and a chattering wind for a mind,
And many a soul from which he stole, but his own we cannot find.
We’ve handled him, we’ve dandled him, we’ve seared him to the bone,
And, Sire, if tooth and nail show truth he has no soul of his own.”

The Devil he looked at the mangled Thing that prayed to feel the flame,
And he thought of Holy Charity, but he thought of his own good name:—
“Now ye would haste my coal to waste, and sit ye down to fry.
Did ye think of that sin for yourself?” he asked; and Tomlinson said, “Ay!”
The Devil he blew an outward sigh, for his heart was free from care:—
“Ye’ve scarce the soul of a louse,” he said, “but the roots of sin are there,

"Now, for that sin should ye come in if I were the lord alone,
But it’s sinful pride has rule inside, mightier than my own.
Ye are neither spirit nor spirk,” he said; “ye’re neither book nor brute—
So get ye back to the flesh again for the sake of Man’s repute.
I’m o'er-lord to Adam’s breed that I should mock your pain,
But see that ye win to a better sin before ye come back again.

"Get out! The hearse is at your door, and the grim black stallions wait—
They carry your clay to place to-day. Move, or you’ll come come too late!
Go back to Earth with lip unsealed—go back with an open eye,
And carry my word to the Spawn of Earth before they come to die:
That the sin they do by two and two they must pay for one by one,
And … the God you took from a printed book be with you,Tomlinson!"
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Black water, be my lover, for lover I have none
Nor ever shall, and empty ache alone
Black water, be my lover, for all my dreams are done
And you are kinder than what life has shown.

CHORUS: Black water, final rescue;
Dark water, lasting peace
Black water, keeping secrets none may know
Black water, final rescue, bring silence and release
Black water, through the city swiftly flow.


Black water, hold my secret, my shame I beg you hide
I cannot bear to meet with friend or foe
Black water, hold my secret, and save my shattered pride
And let them never guess and never know.

Black water, final rescue;
Dark water, lasting peace
Black water, keeping secrets none may know
Black water, final rescue, bring silence and release
Black water, through the city swiftly flow.


Black water, I am weary, the days are all the same
The years creep by with never hope to see
Black water, life is dreary. I’m tired of the game
I’d rather far your quiet company

Black water, final rescue;
Dark water, lasting peace
Black water, keeping secrets none may know
Black water, final rescue, bring silence and release
Black water, through the city swiftly flow.


Black water, be my refuge, I hear them at my back
My enemies pursue me to a man
Black water, be my refuge, they close upon my track
And better your embrace than what they plan

Black water, final rescue;
Dark water, lasting peace
Black water, keeping secrets none may know
Black water, final rescue, bring silence and release
Black water, through the city swiftly flow.
(flow, flow).
Black water, through the city swiftly flow.
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Daddy’s Little Girl
Grew up one night last Fall,
When mommy died beneath the kitchen stairs
And now they cry in anger, ‘cause we won’t come when they call
And they won’t let us find peace anywhere
Oh, but if they ever hold us, I fear what I might hurl
For though they’ve never told us, Daddy’s girl can burn the world

Fire, fire, fire, with the baby in the pen
Fire, fire, fire, is the lady’s only friend
And if they dare the darkness, and try to hem us in
Daddy’s little girl forgets the past
They’ll find their firestarter’s grown up fast

Stallions running madly, with manes and tails aflame
Pounding through my dreams
A nightmare herd, just running; always running
Not outdistancing the pain
But daddy’s girl could end it in a word
But I never want to hurt them, for I know that would be Bad
But they push and hate and scare us, they don’t know all I have…

I have fire, fire, fire, to bring monsters in the night
O, fire, fire, fire, burns my life in hellish light
Burning hands and burning hair, must I burn all I see?
Fury and the fire are close friends
And the firestarting nightmare never ends

So a year is spent inside, learning how to wield a burn
Light your match before your eyes could see
But now something’s going wrong, and we’re trapped around each turn
Locked within a cell without a key
O, there’s nowhere left to run to, and there’s nowhere left to turn
And there’s nothing left to run for, but there’s something left to burn!

O, fire, fire, fire warms the willow trees at night
O, fire, fire, fire will make everything alright
Destroy my life and family, as if you all were gods
But you taught daddy’s girl that game, you fools
And firestarters don’t play by the rules…

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[intro]

When I was young, I dreamed of course
Drawing all day long, lying in the sun
I worked so hard on my portfolio
And I got a job working for a studio
Thought I could kick back and relax
But ever since then I’ve been stressed to the max!

Now they’ve paid for a weekend away
It’ll be hard to convince me not to stay!

CHORUS:
It’s an animator’s retreat
One weekend where we’re not mistreat!
We were planning a protest
(Five months of sleeping under my desk!)
But burnout –
I’ll rest my eyes
And dream about how we’re gonna
Unionize
Maybe tomorrow, when I wake
I won’t realize I’ve made a huge mistake!

How much of my joy will this company use?
Can it all be forgiven for some free booze?
Woke up with an Ink & Paint girl on my bed
If Walter finds out then I’ll surely be dead!
They had us on such tight deadlines
I think I finally lost my mind
This party’s removed all doubt –
PLEASE DON’T LET MY BOSS FIND OUT!

It’s an animator’s retreat
One weekend where we’re not mistreat!
We were planning a protest
(Five months of sleeping under my desk!)
But burnout –
I’ll rest my eyes
And dream about how we’re gonna
Unionize
Maybe tomorrow, when I wake
I won’t realize I’ve made a huge mistake!

[musical interlude]

Every day, I sit at my desk, and go frame by frame
And I knew it was never gonna be about
The money or the fame
But I never thought I wouldn’t
Be able to use my hand
And, oh, but is that blood or paint
There on my animation stand?

It’s an animator’s retreat
One weekend where we’re not mistreat!
We were planning a protest
(Five months of sleeping under my desk!)
But burnout –
I’ll rest my eyes
And dream about how we’re gonna
Unionize
Maybe tomorrow, when I wake
I won’t realize I’ve made a huge mistake!
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As I march from the home I am leaving
By the cottage door, holding our babe
My sweetheart is quietly weeping
For the sweet boy she sends to the grave.

As I march from the home I am leaving
By the fence post, clutching her shawl
My mother is quietly grieving
Her sons, she has given them all.

As I march from the home I am leaving
In the cornfield, swinging his scythe
My father is anxiously yearning
Like his son, he would follow the fife.

But the fifes and the drums are now silent
And the tunic of red turns to rust
And the fields are now sown with the fallen
In the twilight, in blood, and in dust.

And I long for the home of my fathers
For the smiles of my sweetheart and babe
(And) to bring home the sons of my mother
Let our leaders, and gods, point the way.
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