Week 9, Entry 3
Jul. 19th, 2022 10:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
goatgodschildI'm divided on seeking out therapy for my anger issues, in addition to SMART. I don't know if I can afford it, but that's less a worry than the worry that it won't work. I guess I won't know until I try.
But right now, I just hurt, a lot. I can't walk far, I can barely stand up, and I don't even like the idea of trying to sleep, since my feet are throbbing so badly. I don't know what there is to do. I felt like this after the last lapse, like there was no way to improve no matter how hard I tried. But that wasn't true then. Maybe it won't be true this time, either.
But right now, I just hurt, a lot. I can't walk far, I can barely stand up, and I don't even like the idea of trying to sleep, since my feet are throbbing so badly. I don't know what there is to do. I felt like this after the last lapse, like there was no way to improve no matter how hard I tried. But that wasn't true then. Maybe it won't be true this time, either.
