Week 9, Entry 4
Jul. 20th, 2022 11:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
goatgodschildI spent most of today asleep or in pain. I can barely leave my bed during the day, and I had to duck out of the SMART meeting because I was in so much pain that I couldn't speak. It's just a matter of waiting, I guess. Waiting for my feet to recover so that I'm not in pain all the time, so that I can move around, so that I can start exercising/volunteering/working again.
I've got things to write, movies to watch, books to read, music to hear, and lists for all of them that I've been recommended. That's all very good, but that doesn't mean I don't feel useless and lazy. Not to mention, without being able to move far or fast without pain, I'm gaining weight extremely quickly. It doesn't matter that I eat more healthily than ever, since I can't move, the energy I take in can't go anywhere.
Being alone much longer is going to give me a shorter temper.
I made it 37 days without losing my temper last time.
Tomorrow, I'm going to go and try to be settled in downstairs, which will give me some light and air and sound.
I've got things to write, movies to watch, books to read, music to hear, and lists for all of them that I've been recommended. That's all very good, but that doesn't mean I don't feel useless and lazy. Not to mention, without being able to move far or fast without pain, I'm gaining weight extremely quickly. It doesn't matter that I eat more healthily than ever, since I can't move, the energy I take in can't go anywhere.
Being alone much longer is going to give me a shorter temper.
I made it 37 days without losing my temper last time.
Tomorrow, I'm going to go and try to be settled in downstairs, which will give me some light and air and sound.
