Week 38, Entry 3
Feb. 10th, 2023 09:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Papa has spent the past week and change emptying his locker at work. Mom has titled it the Kaczynski Locker, because of how densely it was packed in. Everything in that locker, and what I suspect was a variety of hidey-holes, has been wadded into our backyard, from clothes to furniture to plant cuttings and plastic tarps. And now that he's retired, he's going to have to deal with all of this.
Luckily, he's said he's willing to seek out help for himself.
I am in an odd way.
I have a very basic appetite generally, but I am maddened by a desire for sugar. Last night, at Mom's birthday, I had two slices of pie, even though I felt ill afterwards. This afternoon, Papa brought home a pair of bear claw doughnuts. I had a small amount of one (about the size of my palm), then sliced up an apple and carrot to add it. But instead of the long energy, or even the solid filling feeling that vegetables usually bring, they made me feel hungrier than ever! Carbohydrates are okay, but they are nothing like sugar. Protein is wanted, but my usual sources (eggs, chicken, deli ham) aren't working, and peanut butter is unappealing to me at this time.
I think I should go back, have what I want -- I won't want it again for a while after this.
Luckily, he's said he's willing to seek out help for himself.
I am in an odd way.
I have a very basic appetite generally, but I am maddened by a desire for sugar. Last night, at Mom's birthday, I had two slices of pie, even though I felt ill afterwards. This afternoon, Papa brought home a pair of bear claw doughnuts. I had a small amount of one (about the size of my palm), then sliced up an apple and carrot to add it. But instead of the long energy, or even the solid filling feeling that vegetables usually bring, they made me feel hungrier than ever! Carbohydrates are okay, but they are nothing like sugar. Protein is wanted, but my usual sources (eggs, chicken, deli ham) aren't working, and peanut butter is unappealing to me at this time.
I think I should go back, have what I want -- I won't want it again for a while after this.